My World

Have you ever closed your eyes and been whisked away to another world? A world of your most precious dreams that lures you in, wraps around you, and holds you tightly in its embrace? Its warming touches mystify you, and as you slowly lose yourself, it comes and offers to rescue you.

I've closed my eyes. And I'm there, in my strange and fabulous world. A world unknown to others and yet familiar to so many. I see myself, I see you, I see us. Alone, together, stronger. Miles apart. Miles between seem like a distance I can conquer. And when I get there, I'l walk back through the door, leaving all over again. The unknown is the adventure I seek.

I could lay with you under the bare sky, feeling just as naked, and watch the candles reflecting in the stars above and the earth merging into heaven beyond in one single line. I wonder if when I fall you'll be there to catch me, but when I turn, you begin to melt away - my love, my illusion. And it's not you that I need. It's this world...

I'll stand alone against it. If I fall, I'll land on my feet, like a cat, jumping off at my own risk. Graceful and soft. So safe in its embrace.

I will open my eyes again, when my world lets me go. And I'll know that I can run and catch the wind and if you want, you can too. Together we can make the oceans sing and the air dance around in a million little sparks.

Road That I am

I want you to do something for me.
Sit down and tell me:

Are you ready?

Are you ready for me? And if you are then close your eyes and lets listen to the silence of our loudest thoughts. Let's rejoice in our solitude, celebrate the pain that we cannot feel and give away the love that fills our hearts.

Can you feel me? Can you follow my steps even when I am not there? Will you remember why you came here after I break your spirits and tear you apart? Don't look for love in me. It's inside you. Open up and let it out.

Feel me.

Look back now, see the footprints we have left behind. They are imprints on my life. I am your road and I will lead you if only you don't stray.

Trust in me.

Entertain me with boredom. Amuse me with the ordinary. Surprise me with the expected. And when you do, I will open up the book of my life and tear out the pages that don't tell your story.

Give yourself to me.

I will swallow you. If you let me, I will even give you a new life. Reborn, you will walk a new road, a new path. You will see what I never could, and then you will come back and sit down with me. You will close your eyes, and tell me to close mine, while we get used to the noise of our unspoken words. And in unison we will breath the silence we made up and I will taste your new world, like you once tasted mine.

In between

An odd feeling. As if i am somewhere in between. And its not in between the sky and earth. Just somewhere else. Sometimes it gets cold, sometimes it's burning hot. When I am cold I shiver from inside out. I feel like my bones are shrinking, enveloping, slowly crushing and the pain is almost unbearable. When I am hot, my skin is on fire, I am out of breath, I wake up and gasp. Every cell of my body screams for water, and like a dog, with my tongue out, I wait for relief. But when it comes I know its only temporary, until I'm cold or hot again. Until I am back in between.
(Written on a plane 10,000 miles above everyone and everything).